My Life in a Snapshot
It's on again, off again, on again. Watch me fall like dominos in pretty patternsAnd so it Begins
Blogs come and go for me, it’s kind of like reading letters from an old friend when you go back and read what you have written all those years ago. That’s what I love about them, nostalgia is bascially my middle name and writing blogs gives me the oppertunity to get nostalgic for the empty posts I am about to create.
I’m laying in bed. I’m listening to Radiohead. My heart is racing. My windows are open. My mind is spiraling. My life is the strangest one I have ever encountered, whether you believe it is cliché to say such a thing is your opinion, but it’s true. Where do I even start? Should I even start? I guess it’s okay to be left a mystery, but there are some things that you just can’t talk about & that’s the whole point of a blog, isn’t it? That whole “I’m telling my soul to the world, a world that doesn’t know me” feeling that is so exhilarating. I’m not exactly sure, but I can tell you that my life is like one of those intense rollercoasters that only the real adrenaline junkies choose to persue. You just don’t know what to expect & once you get off you are so out of breath and thinking “what the hell just happened?” and you ride it again to try and understand it better.
I really don’t want this blog to be about me trying to make sense of my life, so I’m not. I guess I will just keep it a mystery and you’ll be filled in along the way, just like I will, I guess. I mean in all honesty, this blog most likely won’t last long, but it’s worth a shot, isn’t it?
I just graduated High School with a whole world of oppertunities ahead of me. I’m the kind of person that has my whole life planned out, but I have no idea what I am doing tomorrow. I will be attending Towson University in August of this year as a Nursing major. Whether it was important for you to know that or not, I don’t know. But it is the most significant thing in my life right now. It’s not even the college experience I am excited for anymore – it’s the whole studying abroad in Barcelona for a year my sophomore year of college. Like I said, I plan ahead in the future, but as for tomorrow, who the hell knows? Traveling is one thing I can definitely say is my biggest passion. Yes, I realize that I share this passion with so many other people on this Earth, which is why I believe is the most important thing for anyone to do in their life. Studying abroad has been a dream of mine since Middle School – even though back then I wanted to go to London, but Barcelona is a better choice. Minoring in Spanish won’t be such an easy task to take, which is why living in a Spanish speaking country will help the process so much faster. Falling in love with a Spaniard is also a good reason to live over there for a year, too ^^. You think you have your whole life planned ahead of you, but when you fall in love, everything sort of stops. The world stops spinning for a moment so that you can catch your breath, and when it stars spinning again, your life has changed before your eyes. It’s a wonderful feeling. I love him, he loves me, so I’ll move to Spain – it wasn’t my original plan, but what is life without a bit of spontaneity?
I doubt anyone will read this, so I guess this blog is more like my personal outlet than anything else. As my last free summer commences before they next big chapter in my life – I hope that this blog stays with me. Through my last summer with my High School friends before we all separate. Through my first high paying job to help pay for my studying abroad. Through my romance with Pedro. Through my fragile home life (I guess more on that some other time). And most of all through my last carefree days before those long college nights. Summer is a time for laying beneath a blanket of stars with your friends talking about everything in the world and feeling completely infinite & driving down the road at full speed with the windows down and Passion Pit blaring through the speakers. I’m already feeling nostalgic for last summer & this is my first blog entry. So is the life of me. Nostalgia.
I guess we’ll see how this ends up,
Caroline
